29 December 2018


Plaid Coat: SheIn // Jeans: SheIn // Top: H&M // Bag: Bershka // Boots: Bershka

I look like Christmas. Sometimes I think I'm the human version of Christmas.
Jokes aside, how cute is this coat? I've said it before, but red is my favourite colour to wear, so it's just perfect for me!

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27 December 2018


If you know me, you know that I'm an open book. I don't have anything to hide and I share a lot. Some might even say I overshare. But suffering in silence is still suffering. I have this platform, where I can make people feel better and let them know that they're not alone in what they're going through, so I feel a duty to talk about my problems. Plus, it makes me feel better, too.

Ever since I can remember, my weight has been a touchy topic for me. It has fluctuated a lot throughout my life, even when I was little. I don't remember when exactly I became conscious about it, maybe in my teenage years, as all girls do. During high school, I had a lot of insecurities. It pains me to know that every woman goes through body image issues at some point in her life, and although not everyone goes to extremes like I did, it's not a fact we should settle with.

So today I want to share my story on how I had an eating disorder and how I learned to live with it.

I've always been a very sensitive person, probably more than most. It's easy to knock me down, even though I don't admit it, and it takes time to get back up on my feet. Flashback to 6 years ago, when I was impressionable, a lot more naive (I still only see the good in people, but that's a different blog post) and very much insecure in how I looked. I felt constantly judged and unattractive. I thought the way to feel better about myself was by losing weight and having this "transformation". In my mind, it would suddenly all fall into place.

First of all, I didn't really need to lose weight. But I was set on it and when I have a goal, there's nothing that can stop me. The logical way to lose weight, according to me back then, was by starvation. Actual starvation.

I remember eating just a slice of bread per day.

I remember not drinking water, because it made me bloated.

I remember weighing myself every hour to see if there was any difference.

I remember my father taking away my computer and saying he'd only give it back if I ate.

I remember looking at myself in every mirror and pointing out everything I wanted to change.

That lasted for months. When I was finally "skinny" (even though I didn't feel like I was), I eventually started to like the way I looked a little bit more, and thank God I did, because who knows where I would've ended up otherwise. But why did I have to go through all of that physical and emotional exhaustion, just so I could accept myself?

Flash forward to today, a few weight losses and weight gains later. It was a long process of figuring myself out and accepting that I only have one body and if I don't treat it right, I will basically have nothing.

I've never been perfect, nor will I ever be. But I have over the years gained the confidence I wish I had back then and learned to love my body plus all the stretch marks and cellulite, abs in the morning and looking 5 months pregnant in the evening, crooked nose and chubby fingers.

It's weird because, even though I finally accept myself, I guess subconsciously, when I'm going through a tough time in my life or when I'm anxious, I'm taken back to 6 years ago and I react by not eating. It's like my body is in shock and just can't bring itself to consuming food. My mindset is different though, or at least I try for it to be, and I no longer feel the need to fit into a certain image that is socially accepted to be "ideal" and "beautiful". So when that happens, it's more of a wake up call than a relapse. It's all about seeing the good in every situation.

19 December 2018


Leopard print bodysuit: SheIn // Jeans: H&M // Boots: H&M // Coat: New Yorker

Unless you've been living under a rock, you'd know that animal print has been in for a while now. Fun fact, I actually wanted the snakeskin print bodysuit, but received the leopard one instead and I've never been more glad that they got it wrong. This one looks so good!

Are you into animal prints?

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18 December 2018


Corduroy Top: SheIn // Jeans: SheIn // Trainers: Adidas

I love snow! There's something so peaceful about it and watching it can always calm me down. It doesn't usually snow like that where I live, but today was an exception and I loved it!

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15 December 2018


Coat: SheIn // Jeans: SheIn // Bodysuit: Vintage // Bag: Bershka // Boots: Vintage

There's no question why red is such a classic colour. It looks good on any skin tone and at any time of year, but especially during the holidays! This teddy coat is such a cosy piece and I literally feel like I'm wearing a blanket out. Plus, I can never have too many coats, can I?

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